I Just Want to Disappear

So,
I think that I will.
But,
Maybe I will be back again.
If I can sort all of this out.
If I can understand.
If I can get better,
and fix all my broken pieces of me.

Who knows.
Only God.
and only him.

It's not up to me anymore. I am almost lost.

Is there hope?
Do miracles exist?
I don't know, but that is all I have left. Without it, I am as good as gone.

I love you.
Thank you.

Sincerely,

a broken heart, mind, and soul.
a broken me.