And I'm on My Way to Believing...

The lyrics of Paramore hold such truth.

Relationships nowadays are so fleeting and cold. Sometimes I wonder what happened to that deep passion; that lasting love that doesn't age as we do.
There is so much hatred in the world.

lust
unfaithfulness
one night stands
Lies

Our society today has spouted out so many lies about love; they have blinded the people and made them believe that lust and love are one in the same.
I am here to say otherwise.
As quoted in one of my favorite recently watched movies (Beastly) "What happened to sappy, soppy handwritten love letters?"
It is still there! I have found it...a love that practices abstinence even after 3 years! A love that knows no boundaries...a love that gets through the hardest times.

If you haven't found that kind of love yet, PLEASE do not give up! I promise you that there are still men out there that value you for who you are. There are still women who contain beautiful self respect and purity.
It is getting harder to find these people in our dying world, but I promise that they are out there.
I love my Matthew more than anything on this planet...even myself. This kind of love is what they write about in books; what some girls my age think that they will never find.

I know that this post is probably pretty sappy and detailed, and might make you want to vomit, but please do not brush it off. Please understand that you will find someone, someday. Someone who can make you happy even in your darkest days. Someone who you are proud to call your best friend. Someone who is there when everyone else turns away. Someone who you will want to spend forever with. Someone who you can face the world with.

If you are struggling; if this relationship stuff gets hard...just ask God for help. After all, he made someone to be your perfect soul mate, and he can help show you the way. All you have to do is ask.

I have been through my share of hurt. I have been cut so deeply that I thought I would never heal. I have cried so many nights because of pain I thought would never end.
But, after finding Matthew, I am glad that I learned from my mistakes. I am glad that I can look at him and think, "This one. This one is for me." And I know he feels the exact same way. There's no better feeling than knowing someone loves you as much as you love them.
And do not think that this kind of love is perfect. The only love that is perfect is the love God has for us. Matthew and I have fought so much...we have had to forgive each other for deep hurt so many times. We have had to go through times that were so hard, we questioned our sanity as well as our relationship. But, we always know that we will pull through it. We know that our love for each other is stronger than that. THAT is what keeps us together. Our belief in the deep connection that we have. Our love keeps us from giving up.

Love is the closest thing we have to magic.
Love is the closest thing to sprouting wings and flying off into the distance.
Love is the only thing that holds us together in this crazy world.
Love is immortality.

And I'm on my way to believing in it.